Yesterday while eating noodle bowls and salt and pepper shrimp at our favorite Vietnamese bistro we talked about things like babies. We talked about how if I wasn't sick we would be trying to have a baby right now. We talked about when we should try and we don't know. When I get pregnant I will have to be off at least some of my medication. This means that even if I start feeling better on my meds, I might go back into the cave once I stop taking them. There is really no way of knowing when the best time is, it's really just a shot in the dark. But we can be better equipped for when the time comes if I work through more of my issues and develop better coping skills.
I feel sad and strange. Dizzy, tummy-ached, droopy eyed, tearful, dried up, and disobedient. It's like reality and my dreams are kept at arms-length so I can't get to them.
Dear Catherine, I think disobedient is a great place to start! :) I think when the time is right, you will have a baby. And, who knows, the elevated hormone levels might take over for some of the meds you won't be taking. Or maybe the joy you'll feel will do the job! I think it's great that you talk about it and gather all the info. You are young and that is a good thing!! Much love, Silke
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