Saturday, February 6, 2010

Mother Mary

This is the picture I'm going to use for the Mary tattoo I'm going to get (this isn't my picture but I don't know who to give credit to since it was just a google image). The crown is my favorite part as well as her open hand and hand on her heart, I like how vulnerable she looks but at the same time she is protecting her heart.

I always get blue on the weekend. I wait for the weekend like I am waiting for something fantastic but it ends up just being another day of me being sick. Luckily Ronald is here with me which helps. I felt like this a lot as a kid. Looking forward to things and then being terribly disappointed, I would look forward to weekends but dad would ignore me just like during the week, and mom would be too busy cleaning to talk, or they got into a fight where they were silent the whole day and you could cut the tension with a knife. I waited for holidays; I waited for dad to come home; I waited for attention that never came.

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  1. I LOVE this Mary you are using for your tattoo! IT's going to be amazing!! To me she looks like she is saying "from my heart to yours." She looks so loving and generous!

    And I'm so glad Ronald is there with you this weekend! Oh, I remember weekends in our family growing up - such tension. I was always happiest in school for the simple fact that weekends at home were never good.

    As you work through your depression and your "stuff" you'll find that you can more and more design your own life. For me, now, weekends that are quiet and peaceful are the most wonderful of all!!

    Sending much love! Silke

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