I had a meltdown this morning. I was alone and it was bad. I cried and thought, sobbed and shook. I emailed and waited for encouraging responses from friends, I text messaged Ronald, I waited. Finally I fell asleep and settled down. Sometimes life can be just horrible.
I'm still not feeling great. I got out of the house for a bit, I ate something, I took my pills...it helped. Now I'm teetering on the edge of feeling so-so and plummeting into a deep dungeness depression. I don't want to get depressed again, I guess it's something nobody wants. The sick thing is I'm almost there and I can feel it, touch, taste it. Its slithery skin, its nailbiting horrors. Hello demon, welcome back.
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