I look horrible these days. I never ever ever thought I would be a "fat" person. Maybe this is just 3 am thinking. I wish I had more motivation to take better care of myself but I'm so fucking exhausted emotionally trying to stay afloat. I'm having one of those "why me?" moments. Why do I have to struggle so hard to be "cute", to be healthy both physically and emotionally?
I'm sick of taking pills, I'm sick of being so tired, I'm sick of 3 am wanderings.
((((Catherine))))
ReplyDeleteHere with you listening dear one.
I've been waking up early and in the middle of the night as well. Good thing I don't have to work during the day - that way I can take a nap if I need to. I wish I would have gotten up and blogged a little. Although with the time difference, it's only a little past four where you are now... I hope you have gone back to sleep!! Much love, Silke
ReplyDeleteI loved the community of those who blog between 3 Am and 4:30 AM. I would too, if I had left my computer upstairs...
ReplyDeleteYou have wise and wonderful friends Catherine. I am happy for you. And I am proud that you are figuring out who you are and what you want to be.
Do it for you. Do it because it is the best for your well being.
I love Catherine.
hang tight ok. I've had those wandering 3 a.m. times...feeling yuck...but it always somehow passes. Hoping it's passed for you...and you're feeling better.
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